this gets quite random. but i just feel like having another post that i just read this friend of mine's blog. im not alone afterall. its another downfall, and i feel for her. even though we're not that close, her posts brought me bacl sometime where i once felt like she does. im sure all girls went through the same thing. for now i believe relationship is not essential for anyone for them to be happy. i mean, what is the whole freaking point when you'll get hurt in the end. yes, the honeymoon period. but, for how long will it last? i thinking sally now. her future plans of career and adopting kids. lol! its too deep to talk about this now, but so just give it a thought. im quite startled sally was on cue when i told her i felt rather disturbing. its just, i hate being dangled around. like hanging by a thread. its like you're being used for some reason or another. and i wish, i wish i won't see him anymore. just the sight of someone he knew makes me uneasy all over. but how not to. i just can't let go of what we've shared. its so hard to let go. the thought of him attached to someone aches me more. i'll go through those times when i'll sit and think. and write and draw. and thought of this. i think and think and think so hard. that eventually i end up with tears streaming down. why the hell was i being so freaking foolish. why didnt i freaking think. somehow, i kind of live by to walk over my past, i'll get into something new that'll trouble me in the end. and the cycle'll go on. this sucks. and i tend to think so much. for this feelings. but not for myself.
rainbow rush(: