me simplified.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

pain.pain.go away.

four hours of sleep last night.all due to this fucking brain i have.i keept on thinking.think and think.dad was being a jerk changing plans last night and rushing me dragging bestie along to get home.turned out.it was only me and them parents.ohmy.loud 'music' in the car.for god's sake,im too tired for their blabbering.dad acts as if i can't hear him while he 'talks' to me.all he does besides working is blabbing,nagging and whatever that goes with it.he's so dumb.in every freaking way.he ask me why is there project work?isn't it homework you suppose to do at home?where's your time management?*insert _1_.so fucking stupid!why oh why does he nags like hell whenever im out late with my friends.i wonder.maybe dad has no good childhood memories.lol!talk about jealousy.fuck off.

so.recap on yesterday.it was awesome.minus tired and sleepy.i was out for the whole day.swissotel with the girls is superb.the view's spectacular from up there and we actually take some time to talk about whatever and whoever bothering us.i so badly wanted a relief.thanks sally,jina and wawa for making me hold on.sso was good.the fact that we're seating right below the stage makes it hard for the musicians at the back to be seen.anyway,its a great show.minus the very slow,sleepy part and suddenly got me startled when the french horn or trumpet or the timpany blast.lol!everyone around feels so professional, i suddenly feels out of place when i don't clap as much as the other audience do, making the maestro or the soloist come pacing out again receiving the not-going-to-stop-any-soon applaude.haha(: but its a good experience though. a quick swap from heels to slippers,cam shots with the mates and we ran for baybeats.it wasn't as crowded as on the friday,but the bands like this particular one from UK,and Agrikulture from Indo plays sooo well!They were so darn good.its like electronic with drums and all.like club music,only better.wawa sweared if she was tipsy at that moment she would have dance herself to infinity.*insert thumbs up(:
late nights late nights ystd.
early morning to the very crowded cemetery.saw haziq.funkycurls is so irritating acting cool cause he just got a 'very neat' haircut and he is ownself-acclaimed immortal cause he is able to chop off a tree with a mini parang.show-offs*insert fcuk face.
suntec with bestie for her Mr Lappy.a quick assignment do.quick baybeats with Fad.and im home.im so so tired.i need some sleep.once again.thanks everyone.and you should know who you are.for EVERYTHING.and i mean EVERYTHING.

wake up before sunrise.

rainbow rush(:

Saturday, August 30, 2008

i can see the rainbow.

im currently at swissotel with the girls getting ready before the sso concert.it rained a while ago and a rainbow appeared.gosh.how pretty.i have a soft spot for rainbows(:
these few days is filled with school,study,late night sleeps,baybeats,stay-ups and all.
im keeping this post short.im having writter's block.
take care you all.

its easy somehow.

rainbow rush(:

Thursday, August 28, 2008

honey.breathe.please.

it was like panic at the disco.casper got me startled.he called complaining depressed.asked for help.asked for the past to come back.asking why.followed by shouting.he sounded histerical.i got scared.more shoutings.and he finally breaks down.he cried.cried like he never did before.i tried to ask what went wrong.he continued crying.i can barely hear him.his voice shudders like a beaten kid.i tried calming him down.he won't budge.minutes.and he hung up with a short goodbye.i can't get through sammy for help.i have no help-lines.thank you.

your worst nightmare at its best.

rainbow rush(:

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

where do i go to now that you're gone.

its been a while since the last post.much has been done and left behind.this sadness/emo/stupit/hyper/happy self all in one.family day on the past friday.fireworks!fireworks!even though the waiting for the start got draggy for a nice 25 minutes,its all worth it.the crowd "ooh" and "ahh" in awe.it was great.even we don't know one another,we feels the same all around.the anticipation of bursting sparkles in the dark sky.loud cheers and clapping tributes to the amazing showcase as the last firework lit the dark cold night(: somehow.i wish you were here with me on this spectacular night.thanks to cousin to take it all back to me.

pretti gay at singapore art museum with the people.earlier was microecons as usual with the ever-silly mr foo.he's full of slumberness.kill time all around.got Fad his birthday bob-the-buildar cake.split with wawa and jinah to Sam.as usual,the gig got delayed.and a hip-hop gig was going on at level one.pretti gay started off so good!forgive was awesome that day,atmosphere,crowd and all!the best i've seen so far(: the band; hear me tobey is so damn cute.the guys actually cross-dressed.lol!so adorable.anyways,the night ended well with my all time crazy girls around minus bestie): a long walk to raffles,late night supper and more laughter.it can't get any better than this(:

im having writter's block at the moment.i can't think.all i know for these past few days Mr Lappy is sick,and he's now alrightyy!for now,im trying to be my best.i can't hide but i can pretend to.i hate medications.i hate how it makes me feel sick and nausea.i crave for a better life.but like mummy says,thank god and be blessed for what you are now.for there are unfortunate people out there craving for what you have now.
maybe.i should'nt take things for granted.maybe.i should stay this way.maybe.i should at least thank god for what i have now.

lastly.

dear casper. i prayed for the best for you. i wish you'll stop your bullshit and move on. i wish you stop calling me like you used to. i hope for you to be better like how i'm trying to work myself out now. take care. cause for now i have sammy. LOL!! I KID!!

does this seems like goodbye.

rainbow rush(:

Friday, August 22, 2008

this is boring.

im getting bored.like hell.so bored.my laptop is sick.ahh..im so bored.friday class breaks are killing me.ughh! fyeworks with family later,since i'll be spending the weekends with the cliques.
somehow.i miss he presence of some particular people.i dont know what got to me.i feel so insecure.i dont know.sometimes,having countless people around me seems to make no difference.i'll have myself to thank for acting this way.goodbye.

you screwed up.

rainbow rush(:

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

bore day.

so boring.mum cancelled my dental app today.opted to go for the private one.im so lethargic.so sleepy.so tired.a day without the girls around is no good day.no joy.no laughter.sorry sammy,no hang outs today.im a lazy bitch today(:

go go power rangers!

rainbow rush(:

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

laughs.

met sammy-pal for breakfast earlier.he stayed over his friend's somewhere near and call up for food.he opt for a different kind of taste rather than the normal english breakfast.so i introduced the locally famous banquet!it was funny as we did a lil tour around the few stalls there.i suggested carrot cake as he wants something different than prata,noodles and rice.funny,he thought it was really carrot-cake.the kind where its baked and sweet with icing on top,that kid of thing.he started to panic and thought the lady got the wrong order when she started to heat the oil.lol! anyways,he liked how the dish tasted,but not quite for the texture.three cheers for this buddy of mine(:
went to study earlier at civic.i got tired.there were way too many people around and we finally settled at a back glass-panal spot where the people outside is able to see whatever we're doing inside.ohwell,lucky for the electrical socket there.laptops won't run out of life(: i got lethargic after a while due the my strained back while studying.thanks to the unproper seatiing position.ohmy..anyways,i love my girls!they're sangat awesome!we never stop making entertaining each other..haiya..can die of laughing.should i suggest a name for this kind of illness?! 'Laughtillyoudie-itis'? fucking lame : after 'de-stressing' wawa with autocad that she's amazed with.lol!we got to causeway as wawa is getting us donuts.we had two each.and while eating,sally made me alugh my ass off by just blurting 'fear factor' *insert her priceless expression with a nutty donut in her hands* hahahaha!! i just blurted off laughing! worst was when wawa sait "..tv i ada bilik."hahahahahahaha! cause she was telling us about where she went earlier before meeting us and she talked too fast and confidently that she got tongue tied.and she didnt even realize only after we were laughing like shitzxzx!lol!!! anyways,thanks for the donuts wawa dear!!
thanks.im sooo tired now.and im pissed cause gossip girl can't run.something wrong with the format or whatsoever..night night dear readers(:
eww.i overheard brother using 'baby talk' to his girlfriend.one word.*disgusting!!!!!

its turqoise and it runs.

rainbow rush(:

Monday, August 18, 2008

blackmail.

was suppose to mit up with an old friend to get stuffs,and was postponed at the last minute.ohwell.even the afternoons were spent at central clark quay with the ra/shyla and friends cause shyla got to tapestry to perform.it was great!the 4 hours was well spent(: hang out with bestie and grase.oh great people to talk to.wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
ok.im tirred.to sleep i go.ciao.a study day tmr(:

night

rainbow rush(:

Sunday, August 17, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINAH!the old *pathetic-im-kidding grin*

even though the day started off with a late morning call,a mess in the wadrobe and a stomach ache.it turned out rather good actually.we surprised jinah with a bday cake,she was so surprised!yeyey!she's a year older.like they say;a year older,a year wiser??idk.it somehow sounds like that.lol!so,the lecture got kind of draggy at the start, but somehow time flies so fast when mr foo started crapping.so merepek.haha!anything to make the lecture more interesting(: lunch at marina ljs.bad service.ohwell.so,a quick stop to the crowded marina for hp pickups.im kinda pissed at myself cause i forgot to transfer my contacts to the sim and now all the contacts are gone.im so dumb!!and i thought it was saved in my memory card.and now,the memory card requires a password that i forgot!cheebye!!!!like kukudu): and worst,the nokia people update the software in it,and i have no stupit idea how to work it.dang.im soooo bad at this!lol!im pissed at myself.can?!

so,an hour and a half of studying at esplanade library and me and bestie is off to central to mit up with the RA/Shyla people for gig.lol.i saw eye-candy(: lol.the gig at central was good,and saw jacs.did a lil catch up though.went to weekend trip after that.the crowd wasnt as loud as the last time i got there.still,it is awesome!!trella is soooo goood!yeah bestie.they quite over-run caracal(:

as for now.im so engrossed in GG.lol!im kind of slow.well,i am.at these kind of stuffs.only.lol!anyways.everything's good for now.i will appreciate what i've given.i'll be better(:

i got my eye on someone who coughs beside me :D

rainbow rush(:

Saturday, August 16, 2008

bad bad bitch.

im being bad.so.should sorry do the work?or would you like me write a sorry essay with my blood.whatever makes you okay,im okay.chill why don't you.

do believe.

rainbow rush(:

Friday, August 15, 2008

good day ahead.

my knees go weak and my head hangs heavy with insides spinning whenever i puff.but i need the warmth.this sucks.im not a daily,but somehow i need it most of the time these days since the classrooms are air-conditioned and we have to stay in there for at leat 2 hrs for most lessons.i don't consider it a habit,its a need.somehow.

school was great.even though tutorials was good as mr fu did a great job at explaining about the notes today,its kind of draggy though.and the four hours break was early lunch at delifrance,followed by slacking at tcc as usual.sadly,the usual spot was occupied,aso we settled for another spot.we were engrossed with the net while joan's engrossed with psp.haha!she got sad cause she forgot her DS,so i got her my psp instead(: computer class was okay i guess,even though arthur is still an arse.he nags worst than anyone's mother.how about that for a lecturer?!pfft!

80 bus ride home.even though im having that 'moment' again and wants to doze off,i got hooked with psp. all throughout the journey.oh man.gadgets are killing me.and i've yet to collect my phone.shall go suntec/cityhall/esplanade tomorrow after the morning lecture.got to do some studying with the girls.

and.i hate it when you have to listen to someone brags and talk about the same issues over and over again.its not that im not bothered.but get a life.if this is all about you.where am i?and you sait i keep thing to myself.tell me,are you selfish.i have to give my all to you.im not forces,but im able to.but you just don't give the same to me.tell me,are you selfish.you come telling me about things disturbing you.i listen cause i care.but when it comes to me.where were you.tell me,are you selfish.you can treat me like shit.and im ignorant cause i knows we need our own space.but at time im down and trigger you with ignorance,you just dont care.you feel that i should make my move.tell me,are you selfish.you got attention whenever you want to,cause you seem to enjoys it.you tell me about it and still complaints.while when i get one of those and talked to you about it,you cut me off with your words.tell me,are you selfish.you can write about me with whatever you like to and thinking i dont mind.you dont even care how i feel inside.i dont think you even want to know.you only care about your own feelings.you dont even care.you dont even listen.and you said i keep things to myself.so.tell me,what are you now?

he's my eye candy.so why must you...

rainbow rush(:

Thursday, August 14, 2008

funfair!

this is what happens when we have long breaks in between classes.and these are only part of us.not the full force(:

im having pms.im not.im so bored.even though school was awesome,i got tired with autocad.its like having all your energy taken away by this irritating software class called autocad.how amazing!?and i find myself super weak and sleepy otw home.great bus ride;cause i spent the whole journey with closed eyes(: even though i spotted the serangoon guys abroad after a few stops near kallang.whatever.be stuck up.im still nice.beef jerkys!

ohyeah.so funkycurls taught me sometime funny yet stupit from someone his age.so,usually you call particular people 'jerks'.but instead of that,he introduced a better one,less 'angsty',more nicer,more polite.'Beef Jerky'.call him merepek.he's always is.that's my sick/crazy/cool cousin.oh.not forgetting hot?!muahahaha!

anyways,schoool has been great so far.even though autocad lesson sucks,i find it nice cause we get to bond with everyone when we go scratching our heads to whatever Colin's teaching.the cooperation and discussion moves us.ok.this sounds kind of deep.lol.its deep yaw.hahahaha!

casper called me sometime ago.he's safe over at the other side.granny is still heavily sick.and i can't find anything to do with that information.err.how about "get well soon"?? sory.im a bitch.

beef jerky!

rainbow rush(:

runaway.

some people are better left alone.i don't understand why when you hate someone,you still has to bother them.get a life.grow up.what a jerk.

im getting bored with life for now.except school.as usual,school is what i look forward to every start of the week.but since school is not on a daily basis,im starting to get bored during free time at home.even with a laptop,i can't do much.its the same thing all over again.im getting bored.anyway,things are starting to perk up with the classmates(: everyone is talking to everyone except for that particular someone.a bitch will always stays that way.too bad.you suck.

sally dear had a great time in school yesterday.finally.after so long of waiting they finally talked.hahaha!great news for her,he might join in for the end month concert thing(:

casper left me hanging by a thread.thank you so very much.he has to fly to LA for his ill granny.sweet thing.oh.nevermind about how i am feeling.gah!

school tomorrow!!toodles!!

red ants sucks.

rainbow rush(:

Friday, August 08, 2008

class break.

currently i'm in TCC campus one.its a long breaktime to start the next class.its arthur soh's next.gah!damn boring.the test is postponed.woohoo!thank god.yesterday's autocad goes quite well i guess.even though i got my dimensions wrong after the whole thing is finished!so.SSO concert soon end this month and the class crowd is going altogether.yeyness!call it bonding(: the lychee soda thing im having taste like flower.ok.im being random.lol.anyway.met the RA/Shyla guys for Art's birthday ystd.was cool.HAPPY BIRTHDAY ART-SYAD!

met funkycurls and brother after school yesterday.it was raining so heavily that we decide to turn to mcdonalds instead.they raped laptop till dead.and funkycurls w9as awesome!i mean his big bouncy hair is awesome.you can actually hide yourself behind it yo(:
a tiff with casper.and i feel good.cheers.

oh.and earlier this morning sally and me had our usual hot drinks in styrafoam cups.she was talking to me otw out of the cafeteria when one of the cup fell.with a "PLOP!" you should see her face.it was priceless!hahahaha!i can't stop laughing!lol.lunch a while ago sucks cause the worker does not have good service.people.DO NOT EAT AT AL-JAILANI'S.cause the owner/worker sucks as they gave the wrong order and demand we have it.fucker.there's a term;customers are always right.your service is equals to zero.mofo.

go crazy with these girls.

rainbow rush(:

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

i fell in love for an hour.

funny it may seem i can't hold on much longer.his morning calls filled with hangovers.late night calls tipsy.missing yourself to silence randomly.done.but funny it may seem its still holding on.too bad im letting go.somehow.i guess.wait.not quite(: casper's turning me over a different leaf.he reads me what's written on the bible when he has nothing to do,simply because i told him im interested in learning about Christianity.its a love/hate affair going on.i don't find the need of having him around.its the same where we used to be.friends.minus the other part of it.this infatuation is too simple.i crave for a stronger one.like i had before.thanks for the hour of your pure stupidity hilarious self.i love that.only that.for now.even how much you yearn to hear me say the three words.

oh eye candy!

rainbow rush(: