its been some fun for sometime and im going head over heels for someone due to some unlikely reason.madness(:
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this particular dream disturbs me.
involving a guy.
a girl.
and his 'light stick'.
do you figure??
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long one. here goes..
a visit to my previous primary school that thursday to get sister's results. ohmy. it has really been long since i stepped in the place, the last time was way way back in secondary one. walking around, wasn't much of a change, just the change of wall colours, bright loud posters and banners hanging all around the school. oh, i miss this. and had a chat with the school dentist, which stays the same way back when i was schooling there. first thing she talks to me, about teeth and gums. (my mind went like WTH?!?) and claims my teeth is doing fine. (ohokay, so random. long time no see, and you're talking about my teeth now?!?!) well, since she's been nice to me when i was schooling here, i give her a pass with her not-so-needed convo. and guess what, she so gladly invite me in her clinic to have a quick check-up on my set of teeth. call that cool or weird?! you take the pick.
and since brother wasn't working on friday, we decide to go on a night ride and yes!with funkycurls. i found him with no hair this time, he had it cut really short, so only little bristles is what he has on his head. haha! anyways, when asked why the new hairdo, he blames the wheather. well, i thought the thick curlies might keep you warm during these rainy seasons. he just reply me with a blank stare. whatever, no more funkycurls for you. heh. so, we had food at the railway station and they spent a holy time getting booze and fag over at some nearby 7eleven after much deciding to club or to chill. next thing i knew, so many cans/bottles around us. and i have a hard time trying to feel my throat. swear upon whatever-i-can-swear-upon, i won't never go out with them on a friday night again. i have no idea their term of 'club' and 'chill' turned out to have no difference. morons.
i have to keep my fingers crossed for a job at little art bug. i was so happy when i got their email yesterday after elfie told me to check my mail. stupidly, i never even thought they would sent a reply through mail. so, thanks elfie for the reminder! happily waiting for the email to load, turned out they need me to resend my resume as my files format cant be opened. so, i sent them another one by notepad. gosh! i cant wait. and i need to rearrange my portfolio and update on the sketches. mother talked me out on signing up some street art classes at scape if they have one. yes mother. im up for it. but before anything, i need to sign up for licence next week. still considering bike or car. mother agrees on bike, so to save transportation money and more convenient for school since im still 18. ohwell, we'll see. we'll see what father has to say.
this sums up for the past days of not updating. must be long huh? heh.
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by the river.
woke up early again today. first and the last day of this telemarketing job. lol. its so darn boring, having to seat there with one hand on the phone the other holding a pen. even though it pays quite well, i hate the feeling of calling up random stranger asking for information and talking to them like no one's business. me, fie and elfie only make it through the first 3 hours, when we got off for break. we really get out of there, not turning back. sorry, just not my cup of tea. so we got food, hang around, talk crap, got back to school for the internet, whoa at the exibition, communicating while doing business in the toilet, walk under a small umbrella under the rain. all in a day's routine. and my ipod have to act like shit when need to open up documents in there. i need a job and im crossing my fingers on this one. okay, sister's psle results tomorrow and mother wants me to go collect it with her. im nervous like fuck. no reason why, which is kind of weird cause its her results. not mine. haha! im so self-centered.lol.
another tomorrow.
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last few months counting.
where will it bring us. i don't know, i have no answer. when will time tell that everything's okay. i have no idea, i not dare to predict. but its been draggy ever since, and i would like to let it free. for i have not trigger you. tell me, what did i do?
a day well spent(:
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semester one down.
exams over. presentation done. the end of semester one is finally here. hiphip hooray!?! well, i don't really have the 'over-the-moon' feeling about this. reason is bacause its going to be a very long-draggy-more-than-one-month-until-january vacation. dang. seems like just yesterday when i fill in the application form for school. time runs soo fast. and its going to be long till the class have meet-ups and sorts. everyone's on holidays and i so need a rewind from all the hassle around me. since that was the reason i gave mother, i told her about having a day trip or probably a one night stay at bintan resort. sounds nice she said, and so she made me look up for the ferry ride fares and all the other stuffs. turned out auntie wants to go there too. so, maybe an all-girls holiday this time. since father has to work, and brother can't take anymore leaves for december cause its overly booked. as for younger brother..i guess i'll just get mother to dump him off at gramdma's. lol. even so, we have yet to confirm about the trip. pending.pending. so, anyone want to spent a day long by the beach with white sands and pretty waves, join me. the more the merrier they said(: good news! good news! i might get a job soon! *grins.grins.* still, everything is on pending mode now. i guess there's something wrong with me, i can't really sleep for these few days, spending the night with sammie here. but once i look at the time, it scares me, not realizing how fast time flies. without me knowing its already way way way past midnight. then i get panicky, cause i know i have to wake up so very early the next day. so, time-check now and then. and..i now remember i have to wake up early tomorrow. heh.
the new 'jonas'
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OHMYGOD!!!! THE FLIGHT CREW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *JUMPING FOR JOY!!*
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another day passes by.
finally im done with my slides for tomorrow's presentation(: all thumbs up! and i hope everything will go well tomorrow during the presentation with my fellow group members. i couldn't sleep well last night, so i spent the time on sammie till 5am. surprisingly, i got up rather early at eleven this noon. so weird. oh, so i came across 'glamour kills' online store. yes, i've been there before, but i this time i got my eyes glued to this limited edition hoodie they're selling for winter season. well, even though there's no winter season in singapore, we definitely have rainy season. and yes, its the rainy season nowadays. so,getting my hands on that hoodie does come in handy yeah(: my intension was to look for pictures for my slideshow, but somehow i sidetracked and went to browse on some online stores. this one at thailand is currently selling a blue mcbeth sneakers!! GOSH! and its so freaking pretty cause its in my favourite colour! *makes facial expression* after converting and calculating the exchange rate and all, it cost about 150++ sing dollars to get it shipped over and all. ohmy..so awesome.. i was thinking of asking brother or father for it, but it is so very impossible to get a green light from them man.. *bangs head on wall* so i need to work now. like by this week?! haha..oh..i need fulus baby..many of them(: lastly, thank you to my dear friends and bestie for making my day yesterday. you guys is the SEX! and..thank you Daniel..whoever/where-ever you are at yesterday. lol.
i see you.you saw me?
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ok best.
bright lights shining.
black white. black white.
loud music playing.
the running of the guitar keys.
the loud beatings of the drums.
screaming vocals.
the crowd roar to the calling.
adrenaline rushing.
moving to the tunes.
pushing the crowd everywhere.
this is the best show ever.
baby, its already four in the morning.
so put down the phone after our goodbyes.
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we are the ones we are running from.
our paths crossed
side glancing not catching your glare
i know you're there
we know our presence around
so when i fall from there
you don't have too look
you'll just walk away
denying you know me.
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one down. three to go.
music is finally over! gyeahh... what a relief. left with autocad, microecons and oral communication. good grief. econs is suck a worry, im still stuck at chapter 2. and still, i can have myself thinking of what to spend on with my "future-pay". lol. im not even near getting a job and already thinking of fulus. wtheck. catch-up with funkycurls. update him all about school and stuffs, and mostly about on a hunt looking for a job. well, he did come up with some ideas i have in mind, since i like to be occupied during working hours, he suggested some admin stuffs, sentosa, end-year/christmas atrium, and the never-ending fnb line. since im still considered 'working' under ramen ten but always going MIA, i guess i want a job from a different line. and after all those suggestions and all, he came up with some stupit theory of how to earn big bucks. you'll always be working even though after your holidays when you'll school in the morning. being my dumb self, i was so eager to know what kind of job it is, he came up with 'working on the lanes'. still, i am so fucking blur i kept on asking him about it, only realising him laughing after our whole conversation. what a kuku! too bad you were'nt there during cousin's wedding the past sunday, or you would just have your ass kicked. faggot!
p/s; if even you can't get what kind of job he's talking about, you also kuku!
soft concrete
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tired.
im currently still in school stuck with music. music test tomorrow and i kind of got the hang of it somehow. things are perking up. but im so freaking tired trying to jam in knowledge in this head. gosh. only a week to go. hold on(:
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open up your eyes to the finer things in life.
you'll see through me.
you'll see through me.
break open from the nutshell you're trapped inside.
you'll see through me.
you'll see through me.
walk out from the picture you've been in.
you'll see through me.
you'll see right through me.
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where did we go wrong.
im getting sick of this. everytime when it get to times like this, where assignments are pilling and pressure on exams are rising, father always have to worsen the situation. for the slightest reason, for the smallest mistakes. having to stay up late in school to finish up assignments makes him go berserk. mother has done her part of passing on the message of what is going on. still, he has to react in those way. shouting to mother over the phone. put the blame on her. using unappropriate words on her. threaten her. just what the hell does he think she is?! screw it. selfish. fucking selfish. self-centered. i hate to see mother caught in this kind of situation. it sucks. why treat her that way? what so wrong has she done to him that he has to treat her that way? its sick to have this done over and over again. arguments. shoutings. beatings. threatening. nagging.
so sick of this, i do not know how to react. its like a daily schedule. but it hurts me so bad to have mother being treated this way. all the time. it just sucks. this sucks.
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breezes from the night sky.
the cold wind's blowing.
sitting apart like never before.
the heart fast beating.
bitting lips enduring anger.
the taste of blood lingering.
sound blares from a voice-box.
the other starts crying.
hands on the forehead looking down.
the tears dripping.
standing up walking away to leave.
the sound from a pair of feet running.
lips apart to speak stopped abruptly.
the pair of hands hugging.
heart against heart thumping hot and cold.
the hot pulled away leaving.
falling to the floor hands covering face full of tears.
the love once defined happiness is dying.
for once was...
'lies embeded in your wounds, i'll stitch it up for you. i'll stitch it up for you. and it'll leave a scar after.'
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was suppose to be at granny's, but a change in plans. i enjoyed the crazy talk with my favourite girls; wawa and fiee. initially, was suppose to go for a job interview, but i ditched it and sidetracked to hanging out with the girls. it went on and on till after 8. just sitting down and sharing our silly childhood stories. man, it was hillarious! lol. things in school is perking up real good. and visual arts exam is finally over. i aced it! yeyey! but, arts management exam got quite sucky, and i just jot down whatever i have in the notes that is somehow related to the topic and all. im in deep shit with music and econs. oh! don;t forget autocad. geez. and all along i thought mr ho is making us draw the lighting line thing for our finals, turned out fiee said there were 3 of them. some other light things too. gosh. how could i get sooo lost. anyway, autocad's assignment on truss is not done yet, and i still have quite a long way to go. for now, i need to look for a job for the 7 weeks long break, and i need fulus baby! fulus!
cupid's chokehold
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the best of both world.
woke up to the blaring of hannah montana's 'best of both world' from little sister's handphone alarm. oh irritating! and it was soo damn loud. turned out, that woke me up, but not her who's nearer to the handphone. man, so idiotic. anyway, i overslept, so, thanks hannah montana(: did some cleaning up and forced to do chores by mother even though i have to study for my exams tomorrow. oh, exams! i hate this. its this time of the schooling period, where you have to crack your brains and burn midnight oil just to get good grades so you could get through to the next semester. no problem with cracking brains, but now an issue with burning midnight oil. not getting a full 7 hours of sleep makes me moody/giddy the next day. ohmy. how to go through like this?! anyway, managed to run through the first few topics on Visual Arts for the day with the lovely ladies; Nurul,Fiee and Nusrah. even though, we kind of lost it in the middle and came out with 'something' that interest us more. lol! 'TGIF' here we come(: initially, i wanted to join sera and the rest at the airport, but it was raining so heavily and i need to save ride concession for tomorrow's school. and and!! i am stuck at my music report due tomorrow. and i have yet to finish reading through visual arts. and! i have not even turn my vision towards my arts management notes. nice one or what?! shitzxzxzxz
a thing or two you fucking owe me
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everyone around me is so engrossed in Formula 1. its the 'new soccer' for them. Oh, since when. and i can't blardy study visual arts. i've spent 2 solid hours writting back down the scribbly notes i struggled writting during Kay's super-fast lecture. end up, i have nothing up in the head, only the name of Mesapotamia-Iran and Persia-Iraq. why, why, why is this suppose-to-function brain is NOT WORKING!! man, must get it work by tomorrow. no time to waste. visual arts and arts management exams on tuesday! goshh. i'll be wishing myself luck by then if the brain continues to hibernate. fcuk.
and i need sleep. now. the noise from the racing cars suddenly sounds like lullaby to me~
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if only walls could talk.
lunch with the mates are awesome. there's always something to talk about and eventually we'll end up in fits of laughter. today, sehaimi aka elfie fell. from a 'kiddy machine'?! you know, that cartoonish machine that will move with some silly music blaring when you put 20/50 cents in it. because we wanted to have prata at a well-known indian coffeeshop, and it was packed. so the guy estimated to wait for 5 minutes before we got our seats as the place is packed. and elfie wants a ride on the 'doraemon-machine'.lol! the whole machine literally fell on him, and we just stood there staring and laughing at the sillyness. what a nice scene. lmao:D
silver string at arts house earlier on. it got quite draggy at the start, as we didnt need to clean up much. turned out we just have to paste some stickers on the seats for seats indication. so we have lots of time to kill. just sitting around. and i was already getting so very sleepy, the sofa-like seats in the chamber just keeps on calling me. haha! well, overall everything turned out great as there's no problem in the upper chamber where sera,sally and me were stationed. minus the part sally and me had to stand for the first half of the performance before the intermission. and i was stoning like hell. the best part was during the second half, where the three of us got to seat and watch the performance. man, i swear i could feel myself dozing off. lucky thing the performance went quite quick. phew. father and mother called to fetch me as they were already at sembawang and intend to get food for the siblings at home. a fast game of packing up and we're out of art house. so damn freaking tired. these few days, i've been so lethargic, all i wanna do is sleep. and no idea why i got soo hungry today, i had 2 servings of rice. whoa,a first!! and i wanna go doze off now, as cousin is bringing us out for breakfast tomorrow morning! yeyness(:
fuck you bitch
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