me simplified.

Monday, March 31, 2008

for now.
currently im at starbucks,making time,not killing time with dear 'old-gay-friend'..haha!oh haizann!while he make-kill time pressing those psp buttons and saying 'SHIT!' every 10 seconds,i'll have his laptop to oozzee this brain liquids with.so.after been missing for soo long,thank god they didn't put him up on papers for 'missing person',he finally shook me up with his sudden call.hoho!its soo good to be spending this time with someone you miss truck loads!okayy.even with not much conversation at this point of time.thanks to the all new gadgets that he brought along with.just tonight.im glad we're finally meeting and it feels just like old times.looking at that full-of-concentration-and-a-little-constipated look on him makes me smile.yeah lovely.just like old times.and i can't believe im typing and thinking all this infront of you.i dare say i miss you.every bit of you.

i'll spend time tonight with you.

rainbow rush(:

Saturday, March 29, 2008

i hate this.period.

Okayy.im pissed.pissed at everything!thanks dad for being a jerk.blame it on me,SCREW YOU!i think you should fucking think about what's going to spitt out of your blardy mouth.this is bullshit.you get all hot-head just because we ask for your opinion.FUCK!then why bother trying to be concern.its way better for you to go screw yourself upside down.im not trying to be rude.but,you're just making me.and stop shouting at mum or whoever you like to.we're not kids for goodness sake!we have mind of our own.FUCK!maybe you should think over about everything;retrace whatever shits you have done and mend this big mess.you make living miserable.fuck lar.i wish you die crying over your fucking attitude!i hate you.period.

Sorry.but when thing get bad,i got vulgar.its not a matter of concern for whoever reading this.but,this is an online diary.you say what and how you want to,if not thay won't call it a diary.for those freaks who go reporting about what's in other's blog.you're a loser.why be such a busybody and care about what people are writting about.and its already good enough you're getting whatever the other person is going through.don't try making it more rough.

i think i need to take my priorities straight.i can't go waste time on someone who wants me to pretend.someone;i do like 'this'.but,i don't think i trust you just yet.i don't want to be fooled again.but.its seems you're so obvious about whoever's near you.im ot a toy you can play with.for now,you sucks.

on a lighter note,work was great just now.furthermore,with all the very lively crew around me.aida,noor,maricel,hong.should do that more often.and there's quite a number of customers coming in and out,so it wasn't quite a rush for us to take order and stuffs.and haizann called me from somewhere too noisy.awww.im so touched.i soo misss my gayboy!!!!!!

grr.im tired.and i love mummy lots!
still.father.screw you big time!

i won't love you too quick.

rainbow rush(:

Monday, March 24, 2008

today.

bored to the core's crust.got up late.rantings and more rantings.missed gig at beats merchant.thanks father.continuous rantings.ice-cream.guitar pick.groceries.watch hunting.music.fell asleep.to compass point.loud loud crowd.tired.bored.bored.bored.bored.
done.

kakichompers :(

rainbow rush(:

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Met Hiid at 10 in the morning.Late again.HoHO!many many apologies.And got lost cause we stopped at Farrer Park instead of Littke India.dingdingdongs!Rushed ourselves to Nafa in 10 minutes.phewww!

Nafa interview thing went very well.The 1 hour paper went quite well,even though i think i kind of got out off point with it.Ohwell.The lecturer that interviewed us was randomly funny.Talk craps.I think he just want to get everything over and done with.Compared to the rest,i think the interview duration was quite short.Ohwell.

Walked through chinatown with ice-cream in the hand.The scenery's great!Kind of old school old school vintage pictures can be captured there.Its more of the old singapore streets peddlers everywhere...so cool!Walked to somewhere near Bras Basah for McDs..yey!the funny part was hiid's fillet-o-fish!hahaha!!!can't stop laughing my shits out!!the mayo on the burger was splat into a small circle at the side just like that!haha!klaka sak expression!thanks uh McDonald's cook!had funn spotting 'british india' people..yey!will do that again..

Walked to marina and to esplanade...then to peninsula...and plaza singapura..where it started raining cats and dogs!!ooo..all wet!!

Overall..everything went okayy..even though i missed my 'kaki'!

shall do the walk-laugh-talk again

rainbow rush(:

Friday, March 21, 2008

shit.PMS.

Its the second day of getting late to work!ughh.It seems that i can't wake up early these few days..shites!

Work went fine today.Liling was extra extra nice and let me do whatever i want to even not attending to the suddenly crowded customers.hahaha...spent 2 hours pretending and checking stocks..ohwell.im not at my best today,and somehow PMS took over everything..damn!

Im psyched cause my collegue that i've just worked with looks exactly like matt from AVA!hahaha!!his name wesley by the wayy...i was like "ehhh...." when he punch in his card..hahaha!!anywayy,i told him he looked like matt from AVA,and he respons;ahhh..yes yes!matt AVA!
hahaha!looking forward to work the same shifts so we can have our never-ending gig talks!!woohoo

Met hiid to get our certs and testimonial from school...bumped into pak khamis son at hg mall..tot he was some aneh from afarr..hohoho...

Too bad,our 'great' teacher can't be bothered to help us to fotostep our testimonial that we shitly need for this saturday's NAFA interview.very nice.thank you from the very bottom of our blardy hearts!you're the best!fcuker

161 with hiid and cracked-up with her 'step-up' that sounds like 'ster-pup'..kenot tahan siaa!!merepek ajer si chompers ni!i promise to cherish thy chomper for all humans sake

Met mother to cp,got syafiq's birthday cake!yey!brother's 15,and he's psyched cause he can finally get his hands on his i/c.adek-adek betol ni satu..aniway;HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ!!

rainbow rush(:

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

yey!

i heart lovelies.
thanks for the soccer boost.
minus this sleepy and PMS self.
no favourite bread.
sweet cold desserts.
laughter and smiles.

i heart pony.
thanks for the care.
minus no food.
your sick sick self.
heart wrecking jokes.

okayy.im sooo gonna get up late tomorrow.

everythings alrightyy

rainbow rush(:

Monday, March 17, 2008

i try.

this gets quite exciting as days go by.it test the patience.your bond.how far you get.how stronger the feelings takes over everything.how every second and every minute counts.how much appreciation occur.how much you take it.how much you need to overcome.how easy or difficult you throw those raptures away when it comes crashing to you.the mixture of feelings engulfed.having to take or throwing it all away.making yourself comply or trying to hard to please.to trust yourself or have someone controlling it.to follow your heart to the open arms or get trapped in confusion and fall.the inner one will try to take control,let it have its way.

this is between me and myself.
you're like sugar pouring out of the running veins
of failed lovers you put to disgrace
i can't feel to fast
i'll fall too soon

rainbow rush(:

Saturday, March 15, 2008

the paranoia.

it took over again.i'm sorry it has to be this way.its not me.its the insides.how it reacts.how it responds everytime something clicks.im paranoid if you're that easy.i had'nt seen it coming.oh shit.if.IF you are not good.better walk away now.i dun need someone to hurt myself with.shit.this is paranoia.im sorry to have it this way.way down.way down inside.i got very very very sick.again.this is the alter ego.with paranoia overcome.

i swear.this shudders the insides.

rainbow rush(:

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

the sun will set for you.

Okayy.I'm in paranoia twenty-four-seven.shites!I can't get off the bed much early than i intend to today and it sucks!there goes my daily Ellen Degeneres talk show..grr!

Met HidViem for lunch and dad was being a biatch again.stopped me from going out.but,ohwell,i always win!haha!so,i was 15 minutes late then scheduled and BK was packed to the core.Since its the school 1 week holidays...grrr...these school kiddies!

And so,HidViem made fun of my name,cutting it more shorter,more wierder,more...'DUH'.oh thanks alot..actually,i dun mind a bit.see,im no screw carrot!im cool=Dtalk about self-praise!

As usual,we both do our walk-here-walk-there-where-to-walk routine..end up in library and to cafe galilee..ohya!galilee-the new hang-out port!awwesomme...so,laughed like no one's biz,fooled ourselves like no one's biz...

And,kill time over at the void deck...kill time kill laughter kill papers kill us!hahaha...okayy,im blabbering shites.

HidViem.Dun worry.Be happy.Move on if you have to.You know im here for you.Im cool.I promise.Even if you call me.Aduh.Or.DUH.

goodnight lovely.

rainbow rush(:

Monday, March 10, 2008

abnormal.

Father was in rage again for like two days and it effected all of us.GRR!so,met charmain on saturday night,did some catching up and she just can't stop talking..haha!its good aniways..take my mind off stuffs a lil bit..yeaterday was boring in the afternoon as everything got stiff when father got home,and bro went off to meet his friend and i can't play guitar cause bro's friend refuse to came by.dangg!and so mit hiid at 5 at cp and head to plaza sing and walk around and catch meet the spartans at cathay..haha!got ourselves some american apparal shirts for twenty..thanks to the very friendly aunty!lol!so,we met the spartans and it was dead funny!one part,someone in the middle just burst off laughing..for no reason..wicked huh!then walked more and hunt down b-quartet's album at hmv,but was nowhere to be found..so,settled for the furniture's album instead..didn't got hold of one night only's album too.i think they have not launch their stuffs to asia..ugh!

And so we went spying on THE GREAT SPY EXPERIMENT!!!AWWESOMME!!the acoustic set was AWWESOMME!and fandy was great on drums!!!goshh....great thing the hardcore's were nowhere in sight..we were they kinda early,and sat somewhere behind-below the stage...awww..SONG...haha!!thought of taking pictures with them,as they were just nearby..ohwell,shyness got hold of us..heh!they freakkin rawked the set!!

And met the ponytail later after..hmm..he was really cheerful..haha!!oh.this is so random.=D

Ohyes.and i saw the CARABOYS.heeeeeeee~

i will say i don't mind.but it's the alter ego.

rainbow rush(:

Saturday, March 08, 2008

yeyness.

Gone shopping with danny,hiid and syu yesterday.since it was payday,and the cheque troubles me alot and i have to get to kovan to get the money out cause posb wont do it!grr..aniways,town was good,and i think cotton on has the most amazing wears at a very reasonable price!yey!to heeren,wisma and far east..hiid was being a laughing bag all the way..haha!danny can't stop crappy silly funny stuffs..and syu's random jokes was seriously hilarious!hahaha!they really got me good!and,i think im just being paranoid about a certain someone.ohmy.

crack me

rainbow rush(:

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

ahhhh.ummm.

okayy.I dunnoe what to blog about.hmm...okayy,work was B-O-R-I-N-G!anyway,thanks to Ina for making my day!haha!talk and talk and crap and crap...aniways,its the only 2 of us for the 4 hr shift,minus liling.haha!it was about 2 when we got our very first customer.The uncle really crack me and Ina good! He acted as if he was in a coffee shop..what the heck!ordered 2 hot coffees with more sugar and beef bento for the china lady that's with the two uncles.the funny thing was after i've served the coffees,he only wanted half a cup of it..im like WTH?!hahaha...soya,customers are always right,but you're paying full price for it uncle!LOL...aniways,we got tips and me and Ina kill time talking to the friendly uncle!kudos to you uncle!so,the crew's planning to watch 10,000 BC sometime next week and going fooding at sakura sometime next week too...yey!hahaha...oh,pali,10,000BC some other time with you alriights!

my 'ponytail' is the sweetest.ever.

rainbow rush(:

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

awwesomme.

Ati's advance birthday celebration was great!yes!great!!Met hiid earlier for ther prescription thingy that turned out wrong..haha!then meet the loves at 5...aww!its been so long larrrh....!Like finally,most of them made it..marina square...fooding at ljs..haha!had a good laugh...then,leap years!!yey...the movie is touching..but thanks to hiid,made me and jae laugh our ass off!haha...i mean,seriously,who would use their lipstick to write on the hospital's glass panel when the opening to the room is just a few steps beside you.??!dangg..you'll be fine sia!hahaha...then to esplanade!!waited for anak pak khamis till 9++++ to ten...haha...kill time tring to write ati's bday message that started with 'ati?' rather than 'ati!'...wttoots!pictures pictures pictures..haha!all this courtesy of HidViem,Nadiah,Liyana,Jaena,Maisarah,BDay Girl;Hayati,Fashli,Hakim,Shazni and Anak Pak Khamis that forgets me!twoots!

see,it's not that bad!

rainbow rush(:

Sunday, March 02, 2008

this to all.

Let's just stop discriminating and backstabbing.You make people's life miserable.How hard does it get to just shut the fugk up about other's flaws and try and mend your's instead?!No one's perfect.This is bullshit!The least you can do is keep whatever shit to yourself.You just don't have to fugking poison people's mind with it.They don't need your mind to think.You're the outmost catalyst.

you're the reason this speculation occur.fugk you.
this is random.if you feel me,too bad.

rainbow rush(: